Coming home to my body

Getting back into my body has felt painful, unbearable, like a struggle

It has felt at times strange, alien, lonely

It has felt right, steady, truthful

It has felt tender, raw, exquisitely sweet

It has felt sexy, sensual, electrifying

It has felt strong, like heck yes, here I am, bring it on

It has felt numb…and the numbness turning into grief and then pure love

It has felt like a communion with everything

And like being in a strange galaxy all over again

I choose to come back here anyway, inhabit my body a little more every time

And in this growing intimacy with my body, I feel the most real, vibrant and alive, the most connected to myself, to nature and to you